My mama used to always be concerned with the choices that I would make, because she would always fear for my safety. It'd always be "make sure you do this" or "don't do that" or something of the sort because it would be good or bad for me. As a kid I'd always go outside and play basketball or swimming or whatever outdoor activities, and I'd always hear the constant "PUT ON SUNSCREEN" ringing in my ear. If she wasn't lathering it on me, she'd be running out the door after me forcing the bottle into my hands. When I asked her why she cared if I put on sunscreen or not, this was the response:
"If you were some random kid on the street and didn't have sunscreen on, I wouldn't force you to put it on. But you're MY kid. So you're going to put it on because I want your skin to be healthy so you can live long and not have any health problems. You'll know what I'm talking about when you get older".
And then she'd end with her trademark "I love you".

You were right mama. I'm older now, and I do know what you talkin about. I've been seeing this as nagging all these years, but lookin' back I realize that it's all love. I been missin, and I will continue to miss all that love.

Hope these two months in heaven have been fun, Mama. I love ya.

gonna make a change, for once in my life.

gonna make it right.

It just may be too much.